A while later...

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It's been a time of ups and downs..of lefts and rights..and strange nonsensical things...

The thoughts that rush in the mind like molten gold time over time, and when they come out of fingers, its just like left out fragments of clinging scrap metal..

Displaced from 108 to 507.

Some place else, in a high rise building..not over looking the vast city, air planes and that lone bench out..

Good to look out at, here...experiencing things that din't do there, but wondered what cosmic play that did all that..

There have been times after times I had stories stored in mind..all intact curled up in a box..

The new first job with boring first day, research and reports..CUUG meet up and getting humbled by the extra doze of kindness showered on a little girl (me) midst of the older techie generation...
...then came the floods of Calgary, the first job losing its excitement, the first ever big salary of my own..the much amount of money i never ever saw in the account of my own..a big grin on my face..and a while later it seemed as just a number....
...and i hadn't ever thought of what to do of that, but all those unheard unknown people I wish to see smiling...the time that's running...and running...and wondering why I dint do anything as yet...
at least a few bucks...

Discovery of a few traits...the spiritual inclinations...

feeble sounds of rebel inside...

..a lot of things to say to a lot of people...

..a letter to all the people of the past...filled with admiration, and at some places to tell that they walked rough as to crush someone else's thoughts....that someone sometime me...and a lot of some feeble rebels around them...






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